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Saturday, 27 December 2014

Part 1

I'm not born to please anyone.

我活着并不是为了取悦你。
你叫我做什么,我应该做什么,
你不是我,你不会懂。
你想做,就做
你想抢,让你抢。
你想取悦全世界,尽兴吧。

我不翻脸,
不是我给你机会,
而是我们之间的关系,没亲密到
需要“翻脸”这两个字。
俺从来没给你脸。

深夜来篇愤怒文。
并不是最近的事,只不过回想是有愤怒火焰的。

有名鸡掰人,是学院新来(7月雇佣的不算新来吧)
Marketing Department的Staff.
说是来负责Psychology的。
就在7月某一天,
他召了我跟学姐到了会议室谈谈。

“我发现你们心理学系很少人?你们没招人进来吗?”
我跟学姐顿了一下,他妈的我们是学生你是Marketing的问我这种鸟事。
没关系,新来的,俺没怪你。
“你们,这个Semester没有活动吗?”
“本来有的,只不过七月到九月之间太多公共假期,Hari Raya, Merdeka, Hari Malaysia之类的。下个Semester会有的。“
“你们的Club只有你们俩committee?"
“两个就够啦,为啥要那么多?”
“不行不行!你们一定要有个Organizational board!要有Committees!"
“。。。。。。。好好好。。。(姑且听吧,要那么多committee生草吗?member又不是上百个)”
“我有几个好人选,就。。。刚才在走廊遇到我跟我聊天的那两位吧!”
他妈的
你是来乱的吧

“嗯嗯嗯,好好好,你可以帮我们做一件事吗?”
“可以!!没问题!你们是由我来负责的”
“我们打算争取一个在食堂的Board来放通告,可以吗?”
“没问题!”
结果无声无息的过了三个月

三个月之后,我们班来了新的Lecturer, 约翰先生。

约翰很明显没教过书,方式很有问题,但人格和操守是okay的。
在我们的fb group跟whatsapp group
都是在说约翰先生,在开玩笑。(纯粹玩笑)

















 纯粹玩笑!!!!




是搞笑的,虽然对他的教书方式有意见,有时还会在group里说他坏话,骂粗话,
但是只有我们懂,没有外人会懂的。

奇怪的是,约翰先生懂了。
上课时,总是有意的说双重意思的话,
“我知道你们对我有意见”
“你们出到社会,就会懂我的感受”
“你们是不是觉得我有点不适合你们?”
“无论在公司还是在课室,都有暗地里说人家坏话的情形出现”

不对路了,开始跟学姐调查一下

就在十二月,我在whatsapp group写了:以后别在FB GROUP乱说话,有内鬼。

是那个鸡掰人,Marketing department负责人。
七月是,他要我add他进FB group,就add了。结果引狼入室。
知道了是那鸡掰人,就remove他了,之后他还死要进那个Group.
就索性Blacklist掉他。
鸡掰人与约翰先生并不是朋友,愤怒的是鸡掰人传给很多人知道我们讨厌他,约翰先生才会不开心。我们并没有那样想过,鸡掰人讲的鸡掰话所有人都信了。
庆幸的是我并没有加他进Whatsapp group,不然后果不堪。

就在post了“以后别在FB GROUP乱说话,有内鬼。”这句话后,
几天后,我有个学妹打给我:

Tuesday, 23 December 2014

思念是一种病。
想见你,一面就好,一面。
要用什么理由呢?想不到,真无奈。

同学们都叫我天才,神童,
神马都会,
有些则叫我Captain,
很奇妙的跟在营里的同志叫我的昵称一样,
看来我跟Captain 这个名字很有缘啊。
但一到感情的话题,
瞬间变noob,被笑了哈哈,
跟男的聊女人,我猛抓头。
白痴,真的白痴。
注定屌丝哦

只能感慨,自己做的决定,自己得承受。
决定停播,停播呗。。。一会儿

Monday, 22 December 2014

无奈的假期,
想打开通话录,却没有一个能jio出来的人。
找到了,
打开钱包,唉,要省点油钱啊。
同学们回国的回国,
回州的回州,
留下我kl仔,在家宅着。

有个幻想,建一个地下室,放满了画笔,颜料,纸,早到晚作画,饿了吃个三明治加蛋,睏了就睡,一星期有两天出去工作逛街买日用品。
世界怎么了都不管,没碍事就行。
朋友们去这去那旅行,玩的开心点。
不用烦,不用去担心。
毕竟,是个幻想,还得向现实低头。

前晚,梦见了你,是,又梦见。
潜意识作祟吧,所做的与脑里所想的不一,
嗨,梦里实在太甜蜜,不想醒了,就牵着你手一直走下去。
用力的朝右脸打下去,不能在陶醉下去。
但又能怎样,现实中无法在一起,就让我甜蜜在梦里走一会也不过分。


好了,该睡咯,Captain,
别一夜比一夜迟睡哦。。。。


Tuesday, 9 December 2014

               


       






Denial
Anger
Bargaining 
Depression  
Acceptance





















Monday, 8 December 2014

不更新了吗?
最近心情不错啊?没沮丧啊?
不,因为知道沮丧,写出来也不会消失。
以为不听不理不闻不问,别陷下去,再过一阵就戒掉写博客了。
但是
不能不写,不能不看,会不安。
会担心,会紧张,不知道最近的你怎么样。
还删掉了博客的快捷键
忍住,会戒掉的。会戒掉对你的依赖。

最近嘛,还好啦。
虽然这学期很忙,但是忙得快乐啊。
明早presentation 
星期四要到新山study trip
星期六跟星期日要上NCO course 
下星期二final了
到了明年又要担心ST JOHN DINNER
还有 area competition 
开心的事,有啊,当上trainer 了。
以后俺的制服有着jurulatih 的徽章。
开心的事,college 的心理学系开始长幼苗了,经营一个新系并不简单,努力果然没白费。

无奈的事,
能怎样呢,
无论对未来多么期待,毕竟是未来,会怎样,谁知道。
活得一天算一天,不知何时自己会突然消失,


忘了,
这是我写博客的原因,
突然消失的我,别去找,看这博客就了了


Tuesday, 25 November 2014

我不需要一个能够在面前逞强逞威风的她。

我想要一个能够抱着我说:“想哭就哭吧,这儿没人会听见。”

Tuesday, 18 November 2014

皮格马利翁对着自己雕刻出来的雕像说话,对雕像产生了爱慕。
虽只是单方面的感情,但有一天雕像活了起来,对皮格马利翁说:“我也爱你。”
皮格马利翁很高兴,但在过一瞬间却沉默了。他很明白,即使自己多爱一个人,都不愿意要她为你改变,接受她的缺点,爱上她的一切,那才是真正的爱。虽然自己多么的爱那雕像,爱的就是雕像,即使不会动,不会说话,没关系,我依然爱你。

但终究,皮格马利翁还是默默的守着,不求占有她,但求能够陪在她身边。

Monday, 10 November 2014

拿到成绩了,唉,没努力的后果,两B三A,
输给了对手,嗨。。。。。。。。

这学期要发奋了啊啊啊啊啊啊

Monday, 3 November 2014

Week 5
才赶完一份Term paper。。。
俺还有四个要赶啊鸡蛋糕










Evolution Transition
Chin Chun Ming
003F11713
Evolutionary Psychology










Introduction
Evolution is a change in population on Earth. It can happen in large major groups of living things, or as well occur in minority species. Since Earth was formed 4.54 billion years ago, living things started to emerge and grow. Nowadays, living things from a single unicellular organism already developed into million types of various species. All of these changes are positive and essential for living things to survive. Yet, throughout these changes and evolution process, there were many of the living things fail to adapt and eventually extinct. The reason behind these failures is mainly caused by drastic changes in environment, weather, and geological features.
Earth has been through many stages within these 4.54 billion years. In different stages of Earth, the geological features and condition are different too. There were four eras which are Hadean, Archean, Proterozoic and Phanerozoic era. Each era has different geographical condition, which was highly influence towards living things on Earth. For example, the temperature on Earth during Hadean era was too high due to frequent volcanism and outer asteroids collision. Proterozoic era Earth was covered in ice, with very low temperature.
According to evolutionary theory, humans did not appear as human on Earth “suddenly”. Humans evolved from another type of organism throughout billions of years. In the same time, other organisms nowadays such as cat, dog, dolphin, and monkey also evolved from same ancestor billion years ago. According to Darwin (1859), all species evolved from the same ancestor during Archean era of Earth, which are the protozoa. From protozoa to humans, there were many transitions happened and this paper is focusing on those evolution transition topics.






Transition of Earth
To describe Earth in an easy way, Earth is just like a rental house. At first there was tenants lived in there, after a while the old tenants moved out and new tenants moved in. The reasons why they moved out maybe because of the weather is too hot, the air conditioner is not cold enough, or the environment is not suitable. Similar to Earth, the transition happened on Earth might provide a good environment for some organisms to live but also sometimes provide bad environment which caused most organisms faced extinction. To get a deeper view in it, we need to understand the stages that the Earth had undergone and events that happened during that time.
1)      Hadean eon
According to University of California Museum of Paleontology (2011), Hadean eon (4.6 to 4 billion years ago) was the early formation of the Solar System. The sun appeared as a cloud of gas and space dust, attracting and compressing into one giant gas ball and started to undergo nuclear fusion. As a result of nuclear fusion, massive amount of heat was released. At the same time, space particles around the sun started to merge by gravity into planets and smaller particles united into asteroids and comets.
Once Earth was formed, the core emitted very high amount of heat energy and the surface of the Earth is in molten rock state. This stage is known as Hadean era. During Hadean era, the condition of the Earth is under very high temperature and there was no breathable air. Hadean era lasted for 2 million years and throughout the years uncountable volcanism and asteroid collision has happened. These harsh conditions and phenomenon could not allow any organism to live on Earth. Thermophilic organisms (organisms that preferably live in high temperature environment) might have originated in this period, yet the temperature range favored by thermophilic organisms did not appear for most of the history of the Earth (Pace, 1991). This statement leaves several hypotheses that life did not start at Hadean eon.
During early 4.4 billion years ago, the Earth started to cool down and the water vapor started to condense into liquid. According to an extraction activity in 2014, a fragment of zircon crystal has been discovered in Jack Hills, Australia. Zircons have highly resistant towards chemical changes just like gold, also shows that the zircon crystals crystallized 4.4 billion years ago. This statement reinforce that 4.4 billion years ago the Earth had started to cool down and water was present during that time. Besides from water, there were several important elements and compounds appeared abundantly in the atmosphere such as nitrogen, nitrogen oxide, carbon dioxide, methane, ammonia, hydrogen and hydrogen sulfide (Zamora, 2014). Amino acids are the first organic molecules to exist on the Earth. As the structuring of proteins, amino acids are the basic unit of it and linked to almost every single life on Earth which consists of protein. According to Nature Education (2010), amino acids appeared between 4 billion and 3.5 billion years ago in Hadean eon through chemical synthesis of ammonia, hydrogen, methane, and water vapor. Because of existence of amino acid, single-stranded protein which is ribonucleic acid (RNA) had developed and later on developed into deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA). It was the first genetic material exists on Earth and also known as the beginning of life. The first life form is known as protobionts.
2)      Archaean eon and Proterozoic eon
During 3.9 to 3.5 billion years ago, the Earth had entered a new eon, which was the Archaean eon. Protobiont organisms had developed into a more complicated organism called prokaryotes. Prokaryotes have the ability to undergo asexual reproduction, which is binary fission to divide themselves into two offspring (Bult,et al, 1996). By using this reproduction method, the ocean of the Earth was full with prokaryotic organisms during Archaean eon. A very amazing phenomenon was happened during this time which was the level of oxygen in the atmosphere shot up from none to 10%. This phenomenon was happened because of the development of a new prokaryote called cyanobacteria. Cyanobacteria have the ability to make food through photosynthesis, which is the process by taking in carbon dioxide gas and release oxygen gas (Kendall, et al, 2010).
During 3.5 to 2.1 billion years ago, a new type of organism had emerged which is the eukaryote. Eukaryote can be comprehended as the “ancestor” of all plant and animal. Eukaryotes developed a digestion process called endosymbiosis, which means one eukaryote will parasitize another eukaryote and become a more complex organism. As the endosymbiosis process continues, the eukaryote become more complex and eventually develop several organelles in one single cell and possess different function in each of them (Bult,et al, 1996). By 1.5 billion years ago, multicellular organisms grew abundantly according to fossil record. According to Smithsonian National Museum of Natural History (2007), the oldest known multicellular eukaryote is Grypania spiralis, a coil and ribbon-like fossil was found in Michigan. The dating system shows that the eukaryote fossil was formed 2.1 billion years ago. Thanks to evolution of multicellular organism, sexual reproduction ability was developed to replace asexual reproduction. Sexual reproduction is very important because it can induce variation among organisms and variation is essential for evolutionary process.
3)      Phanerozoic eon

a.      Cambrian Explosion
Phanerozoic eon is the last eon and also the current eon that we are living under. 535 million years ago, eukaryotic organisms began to bloom rampantly. This phenomenon is known as Cambrian explosion. For 10 million years, aquatic animals evolved most of the elementary body forms like nowadays worms, starfish, crustaceans, algae, and sponges (Wang, et al, 1999). Also in Cambrian period, prey-predatory became more vicious and multicellular organism started to use seawater and mineral to build up “weapons” such as claws, and prey built up defensive “shield” such as hard plates and shell.
b.      Ordovician period and Devonian period
At Phanerozoic eon’s period, Ordovician period approximately 505 to 540 million years ago was the period where animals and plants started to colonize together to avoid predation. Until 365 million years ago, it was the Devonian period. At Devonian period, there were two major dominant species living on the Earth, which were the tetrapods (animals with four limbs) dominating the land and brachiopods (animals with two hard shells located top and bottom) dominating the ocean (Speer, 1998).  Animals started to live on land since there was a formation of land masses in this period. During Devonian period, there were three major continent masses which were Paleosiberia (a portion of modern Siberia), Euramerica (combination of modern North America and Europe), and Gondwana (combination of South America, Africa, Antarctica, India, and Australia). There was no mammal, reptile, or amphibian organism developed in this period, only fish-like organisms. Besides, plants also began to spread on the land in very small amount and sizes. Those plants did not have roots or stem and did not grew more than few centimeter tall. But then, during late Devonian period plants started to increase in population and started to grow roots and leaves.
c.       Carboniferous period
In 399 to 259 million years ago, the Earth stepped into a period known as Carboniferous period, the Coal age. The increasing of animals caused the amount of carbon dioxide increase, which was extremely favorable by plants, as a result causing plants to grow rampantly on land. As population of plants increases, the photosynthesis process (process which plants make food by taking in carbon dioxide and releasing oxygen under sunlight) became much more frequent. In a very long geological time, the oxygen level in the atmosphere was too high and reached 35% portion of air. According to National Geographic Society (2014), insects and spiders grew in massive size due to high amount of oxygen in the air. Centipedes can grow into maximum size of 2 meter long and dragonflies can develop into 0.75 meter long. After over several million years, the climate started to change and the amount of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere was harshly decreasing due to excess growth of plants. The declination of carbon dioxide caused the collapse of whole carboniferous forests kingdom and those remains of dead trees buried under the land. Nowadays, those remains have become very precious energy resources like coals and petroleum because of the thermal pressure. Also, the collapse of carboniferous forest caused the formation of wetlands, marsh, and swamps, which lead to evolution of reptiles and amphibian. Reptiles and amphibian started to live on land and ocean through wetlands, which allow them to adapt both environments. Amphibians in carboniferous period grew in large size and developed amniote egg reproduction (National Geography Society, 2014).
d.      Permian period
In between 299 to 251 million years ago, the Earth stepped into Permian period. During the Permian, a single supercontinent was formed by combining all land masses from all over the world. The supercontinent called Pangaea meanwhile the combination of land masses left a large single ocean called Panthalassa (Kazlev, 2012). The combination of continents encouraged more organisms to start living on the land. Non-flowering plants such as pines, conifers, and ferns became more prominence in this period. Besides, two types of animal roaming widely on the land which was Pelycosaurs (quadruped reptiles with large hard fin on the back) and Archosaurs (the ancestor of dinosaurs and modern reptiles). At the same time, giant carboniferous insects met their extinction due to collapse of carboniferous ecosystem (Kazlev, 2012).
e.       Permian Extinction
According to Hoffman (2014), there was a huge extinction event happened even before evolution of mammals and dinosaurs. During 252 million years ago, one of the huge extinction event of species happened on Earth, Permian-Triassic extinction as we know nowadays. Some unknown reason caused 90% of species on the planet met extinction. Only less than 5% of organism lived in the ocean survive the extinction event meanwhile almost all plants died. The speculation for the major extinction event is most probably caused by acid rain, yet there are still many mysteries remain unsolved (Chu, 2013).
f.       Triassic period
According to Smithsonian National Museum of Natural History (2007), the end of Permian extinction was recovered slowly during the Triassic period (252 to 201 million years ago). Brachiopods (two shells organism) went fully extinct. But then, dinosaurs started to evolve and began to roam the land. Archosaurs evolved into much diversity of dinosaurs and modern lizards meanwhile a new species called lystrosaurus had evolved. Lystrosaurus was believed to be the ancestor of mammals and it had features similar to pigs nowadays. According to Newitz (2013), lystrosaurus in Triassic period did not have any natural predators who fed on them meanwhile lystrosaurus was herbivore by the way. Besides, they had no sharp teeth or tusk as defense mechanism. Yet, lystrosaurus had strong adaptation abilities toward weather and environment. That is the reason why mammals can survive from the major extinction.
g.      Jurassic period
Until 199 to 145 million years ago, dinosaur became the dominant species on Earth in this period, which known as Jurassic period. The name “Jurassic” is referring to the Jura Mountains by Buch in 1839. The domination of huge and giant dinosaur on the Earth threatened mammals’ life and mammals had to grow in smaller size to maintain population (Department of Paleobiology, 2007). In the oceans, plenty types of sharks and marine crocodiles evolved and grew in large number of population. On the land, the first flying vertebrae animal was pterosaur, which evolved to giant bird during late Jurassic period. In Jurassic period, dinosaurs dominated the animal kingdom meanwhile ferns and conifers dominated the plant kingdom. From the geological perspective, Pangaea had separated and some low ground area flooded by sea water. This continental drift caused North America drifted apart from South America and Africa, also formed Atlantic Ocean in between those two continents (Department of Paleobiology, 2007).
h.      Cretaceous period
During 146 to 65.5 million years ago, Earth undergone changes in geological and living organism. According to University of California Museum of Paleontology (1995), cretaceous period was the period whereby many types of new diversity appeared. For example, here comes the first appearance of flowering plants and angiosperm, butterflies, and bees. The presence of bees and butterflies encouraged the increasing population of flowering plants because those insects acted as the vector to transport pollen grains for reproduction.
i.        Cretaceous extinction
In late Cretaceous period (65 million years ago), dinosaurs who dominating the Earth for several periods met their extinction. Although this Cretaceous-tertiary extinction was not as critical as Permian-Triassic extinction, but this extinction event induced the evolution of mammals on Earth which indirectly induce the evolution of humans. According to Smithsonian National Museum of Natural History (2007), the reasons of the dinosaur’s extinction are still being argued by paleontologists. Paleobiology researchers agree that a major cause was an asteroid about 10 kilometers in diameter that collide with Yucatán peninsula in Mexico. The aftermaths of the impact were catastrophic; possibly inducing global forest fires, long-period of cold weather due to smoke and dust blocked the sunlight, and followed by a period of hot temperature caused by the high levels of CO2 released into the atmosphere (greenhouse effect). Evidence for these statement is the finding which paleontologist found cretaceous dinosaurs’ fossil under a layer of asteroid rocks layer. Some paleontologists claim that dinosaurs were deteriorating before the asteroid collision; hence its environmental aftereffects quickened their extinction. Besides, there is others fact to the plenty and diversity of dinosaur species fossil recorded in the sediments left underneath the asteroid impact layer in the Hell Creek Formation of western North America.

4)      Cenozoic era

a.      The Age of Mammals
Lastly, it is the Cenozoic era (65 million years ago to present). According to Hamilton (2010), the early stage of Cenozoic era was still dominated by descendants of dinosaurs, the birds even after the mass extinction of dinosaurs. But then, the land nowadays is dominated by mammals. Different habitat diversified mammals to herbivore, carnivore, and omnivore just in order to survive. During 65 million years ago, a type of mammals diversified and evolved into Plesiadapiformes, which believed it is the ancestor of primates (ape-liked mammals) (Dawkins, 2004). Throughout 50 million years of evolution, the first Hominidae (great apes) diversified as the descendants of gibbons. For another 12 million years of evolution, some great apes developed bipedal abilities (walking with two legs) and they are known as the ancestor of Homo mammals.
b.      The Age of Humans
The Homo genus organisms was then evolved into Homo antessor, which as known as the ancestor of Neanderthals and modern humans (Bermúdez de Castro, et al., 1997). Until 200 thousand years ago, the first homo sapien with Y-chromosomes evolved and they were originated from Ethiopia, Africa.  The population was then increasing and starting to migrate to all over the continents. Till now, it is the Age of Humans.







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Monday, 27 October 2014

部落格肿么变得冷清了
忙吗?挺忙的
这两个星期,还是有好事发生的说
Duty Hours 有六十三个小时了哟,
班上有个学妹,长得很像她,没事,她有男友了,幸好没乱来
老妈生日
老朋友生日
接下来的日子可就更忙了。。。
准备Field trip
准备慈善晚宴
急救比赛Training
Organizational psychology 的case study
Family dynamics assignment
Evolutionary psychology assignment
Neuropsychology assignment
还有该死的moral拍影片
能怎样呢?以前的我早就忍受不了挂了。
现在的我,有了动力,硬着头皮上了。


是啊
坏事呢?
嗯。。。
安静下来,自己扛吧,没人会为你感到悲哀的。


Friday, 10 October 2014

窒息的感觉又来了。

本以为这个学期五个科目能过的充实些,
但星期五这一堂课我不想上了,超赌懒。
Pengajian Moral
由一位华人女教授授课,英文糟透。
说话没人听,问问题没人应,
那可以接受反正已经尽力了。
让人鼻赤的是全班有四十多学生,
男的只有五位,就能想像到三个女人一个墟班里大概有十多个墟吧,
他妈的吵。

更鼻赤的事,
只有我跟ah Sky 是心理系的,其他人都是business, interior design 等等,
没办法,得附和别班,加快毕业。
俩人呆呆坐在那,教授讲的话一点深度都没有。
(可能是为了art学生把课题简单化了)
但是说说打战话题时可不可以别嬉皮笑脸啊老湿,
别在心理学学生面前乱掰。

四十多人,没办法窒息感觉又来了。
教授还说会有六人group work
没一个认识的怎么group啊,俩人被排挤啦,
对不起啊Sky哥,
这个assignment 20分我打算给它吧,
有美女吗?很多。。。。
但不打算认识,太"贵"了,
说要同组别人根本不鸟你,

我只恳求别来烦我就得了,太多人我应付不来,会窒息屎掉。


Tuesday, 7 October 2014

有一种想念,叫怀旧。
不是因为爱而想念一个人,
纯粹想念,没任何杂质的想念,
某个记忆点让我想起你,
经过某个地方会瞄一瞄看你在不,
听到某个笑话会第一刻想到你。

留下只有遗憾,揭开衣裳还能看见伤疤,
明知道人家心里没有你,就放下吧。
但我很清楚,那不是爱,已经没爱了,
我也很讨厌,
一个想当日还信口开河的说此生不渝,
今日说不爱那么不专一,爱撒谎。
现实不得不让人低头啊,
曾经付出一切时间心思培养的爱,
夜夜说晚安嘘寒问暖地,
今日换来赞我专页的信息,

我不是情圣,
别给我标了个签让我无法继续去爱。
我两年前说过的话
对一个人好,只会留下“好男人”这三个字,
永远都不会成为 “爱你的男人”。

我与她没挂钩了,但标签还在,
请替我撕掉,我还想爱别人,想爱现在这个她。


Saturday, 4 October 2014

欢笑后,总有个莫名的哀愁感来袭。
不是因为对着朋友们对闷了,
也不是笑话听腻了,

而是知道,不能开心太多,上天会降下一些鸟事收回你之前的快乐。
静静的,渐入回到这丑陋的世界。

Friday, 26 September 2014

没有人会珍惜你所付出的一切,
但是只要有一天你付出得不够,
就会被人指指点点还嫌东嫌西,
骂您为什么不帮我,
指责您为什么变了,
觉得您背叛了他。



Sunday, 14 September 2014

明天考试咯?怎么没rasa?
呃,你读了吗?没关系,assignment 交了就上岸了。

回头看看,几天没写记录了,看来没什么精彩的事发生在俺身上。和孩纸们喝喝茶,在家里看资料,放了几个鸽子,妈妈去哪儿,独自用餐。
真写意。

这种不用应酬人家的感觉很爽,真不想打扰这世界,也希望世界别打扰我。有时候会很奇怪的说些话,很奇怪为什么对你那么好?
星期三,那一天放学,与一名同学步行到车位取车,看见学妹独自走路到快铁车站。那学妹跟与我同行的同学是同学期进的,于是就对他问道:
“She walks home?"
“She walks to Ampang Park n take lrt"
"Oh, i think she should not take this route, it is dangerous for her to walk alone. She should walk there"
"Oh... lemme tell her"
"Nvm nvm, next time, she already far away"
取车后,我竟然驾车跟着她(没发现),见到她到了double tree我才安心回家。

我在干嘛。那条路是确实有危险(有屡次劫案发生),可我干嘛像个变态,说好的别去管这世界的说。干,越写越怒。

Sunday, 7 September 2014

每个人都知道,世界上是没有所谓的“理所当然”。
可是真正了解的,有几位?可笑的是总看到有人总是有意无意的表露出一幅理所当然的鸡掰样。
做了一千次好事,坏了一次就是坏人。
守规矩十年,犯规一次就是罪人。
总是做乖乖男,有一天不做了,就会被人唾弃,被人说是个披着羊皮的狼。

是惯性原理吗?动了就不停,停了就不动。

曾经是个面团的自己,被人搓,被人扭,变成跟自己完全不同的人,来满足不同的人,
见人说人话,见鬼说鬼话。
一天变了,就会被群殴,一些不关事的也来趁机出动。

“为什么你要这样?”
“为什么你不帮忙?”
“为什么你没来?”

听累了,没什么感觉,就只是麻木了。

Saturday, 6 September 2014

喜歡你原來是如此寂寞
你從來什麼都不說
浸在時間的河流揮霍
看著別人甜蜜快樂 我應該怎麼躲
嫁給寂寞 我的幸福沒有著落
別讓我墜落 別讓我難過 我祝福我

连续两星期都duty至深夜,
张智霖演唱会,Leisure Mall中秋晚会演唱会,
嗯。。。
该停吗?下星期还打算去茜拉演唱会的说,



可是俊铭,
你还有功课。

Thursday, 4 September 2014

整理相簿,私藏一些下来吧











中间举牌子的是我哦