“呃，做莫突然间喜欢别人了？还拍拖了。”

俺认为对一个人好，默默的等，也是一件幸福的事。花上时间花心思只为了跟她亲近一些，旁人认为你是傻瓜，自己却乐在其中。不介意当观众不介意被冷落不介意当个有要求才有理会的柜台。俺认为那是一种浪漫，一种感情，到现在也是。

俺当然想等啊。

。

今年是俺的衰年

俺不开心

俺低落
做什么都事与愿违。俺很难过很难受。
压力，焦虑，半夜都会忽然惊醒。付出了那么多却没人看见。
被辱骂被冷落被唾弃，精神不知崩溃了几次。
俺一段时期不想出门
不想上课不想上班不想见人
不想说话。
跟友人见面只聊开心事。
把眼泪吞下。
跟她见面更是要春风满面。
俺痛苦但又能怎样

这个她

她进入了俺的人生。
她愿意跟俺说话
愿意听俺诉说
愿意等
愿意挨
她的小手牵着俺
告诉俺她会一直在我身边
告诉俺俺什么都不用担心只需让她好好的爱
告诉俺俺是最好的
无论俺现在默默的等待着那个她
这个她也会像俺一样默默的等待着俺。

被人等待的滋味
被人爱
被人珍惜
那九月的惊喜
来的很快



9月28日
我们在一起了
没有必要等待了
目前的快乐最重要
珍惜眼前的她

不是一时的感动，不是因为寂寞难耐。
是俺开心了。

自从交了女朋友后
才知道什么是肉麻

但好稀饭

Kill me pls

it's weird to have someone who has mutual feeling as you.

everything seems so perfect and i'm starting to worry.

i am a man with anxiety.

i know trust is the most important ingredient in relationship.

I trust her, and she trusts me.

But there is one room in my heart

storing all the deepest and darkest fear of mine

locked and chained.

i'm not ready to disclose that

i'm sure one day i will

i don't know anything

but i'm sure i love her.

and be truthful to her is the least i can do

i love her too much

that i'm afraid that my darkness engulfs her

maybe i'm just being self righteous

maybe i'm underestimating the power of love

i'm just not entirely secured yet

i'm not willing to experiment it without gathering enough data

she's too perfect

and i'm a man of anxiety.

:)

September is a surprise month

2016

Is a bad year for me.

January, car was overheated
February, car battery was stolen lol
April, best friend left us to US
May, phone died
June, insomnia n stressed out for a month because of charity performance
July, car was hit by and run


Almost thought things couldn't get shittier.

But hey.

September, I'm in a relationship.
❤

Am I in love? I don't know