已发现自己并没有多聪明。

之前曾经称赞过我是天才神童真聪明的人，我要感谢你们，言重了，过奖了。

抱歉，我不是那一种在班有人问的问题就会抢着答的学生
不是那种身边坐着一大群女生的笑话男
不是那种拍马屁的料
不是那种什么事都volunteer 的家伙

我都在一旁看着，当观众，适当时才发功。
寻找，渴望聚光灯的日子好难熬，不熬了。
您看不见我
您不认识我
您不觉得我有料，无所谓

我只是学生，不是小丑，不是来联谊。
满足 与 取悦
是截然不同。

我活着不是为了取悦任何人
互相达到一定的互利满足，就满足。
功成，便身退。

这方面我宁愿笨下去

已迈入了大学生涯的第二个礼拜，
一直没时间记录下来 (懒)
趁睡不着，写一点点。

IUMW
International University Malaya Wales
是我开启degree生涯的新起点。
这里到处都是写着“University Malaya"
厕所写着，食堂写着，走廊写着，课室写着，怕死别人不懂它是政府学校。
说到政府大学，这里的气氛有点熟悉。很像以前中学时期的环境
只不过地方大了，人大了，人数多了。
老师，学生，规则，都很“马来气”。
挺严厉的，
不许抽烟
长裤，包鞋
情侣“拉扯”
还有种种回教徒不当行为都不允许。
(不是严厉了，是我之前的学院太松懈了，拜拜拖鞋)

第一堂课TITAS
幸亏教授是个很幽默的ustaz，完全没睡意，不错。
然后一来就group assignment
就牵了我第一个认识的基友，Ash 印度仔跟另外四位印度女子，还有一位马来男子同组。
之后拜一上了English for prof com,
又要group assignment (俺最讨厌的了)
望一望Ash,他又望着我，笑笑哈哈哈
找了另外两个来认识认识
一个是索马里来的Mohamud
还有一个是菲律宾男Alan

有预感，group assignment 会pass，但是很难拿A。 科科

报告完毕，晚安

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最近都没灵感

应该是这几天过的挺开心的

8月9日

早上

是我发过史上最甜蜜的梦，也是最心碎的梦。

别，请别这样玩我。我想睡个好觉。

忙着救火的一个晚上

How do you define "useful"?

"Don't study, working is better"
"Science outdated, now is businessmen's world"
"Going out frequently is much interesting than sitting in lab"
"Having large social connection is useful"
"Don't study so much, it's useless"
"Without rich people, scientists are useless"
"Why learn something that you can hire someone to do it for you"
"Top student? My ass. I got my father's business"
"Actors, celebrities earn much more than any science degree holders, don't even need SPM."
"Why? This course is useless in the future, don't take this"

To know is something, whether can be career, knowledge, qualification, skills is useful, don't measure it by using "how much money you can earn from it?"
You might have own opinion, but please respect other's decision. Can be a trash in your eyes, but it can be a treasure for others.

People hate science students, because society pay so much attention to them, instead art and non-science students. Government categorized elite students MUST take science as core, meanwhile isolated poor academic students into non-science class. As time grows, this stigma has been stucked among students, parents or even teacher's mind. Art is for dumb kids, science is for bright children. The hatred grows even more.

Everyday we can see on the social media, people bragging that they earn plenty of money, meanwhile don't evem have a SPM qualification. People saying that Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Mark Zuckerberg were dropouts, still be more successful than university graduates. People debating that experience and social skill are much significant than qualifications, label those high academic students as "book worms", "nerds".
Meanwhile, those "nerds" never insult those dropouts, failed students, art students as STUPID people. Society does.

Science has been labelled as the noblest career since the beginning of civilization. Physics, biology, alchemy, anatomy, geology, astrology, et cetera. This career, this field, this spirit lasted for millennium. It survived war, disaster, great depression, diseases, religious war..... until now, being label as something useless, something that can't bring you money, something that won't let you become popular, something that is compulsory for you to pass in school.




If there is war happened in your country currently, can you use your fame to do something?
Can you use your "followers", "fans" to make changes?
When there is earthquake, buildings collapsed, can you show your property knowledge to recover the building?
When your friends and family have an incurable disease, can you eat your father's company?
When there is no more banks, can you use your credit cards?

When humanity is leaving earth and heading to a new world,
should we bring an economist or a scientist?
Recalling back the movie "2012", which group of people is worth to save?

Money can't buy logic.

出奇的失望 ，明年还需考虑参不参加。

科科，交到朋友就好。