大学生涯可说是充满惊喜啊

惊喜
队友依旧的让人失望

惊喜
我还是依然的高调

惊喜
官字，还是两把口

惊喜连连，舍朴赖斯

I don't know since when I've been this arrogant. Maybe i was before, but I've nvr noticed.觉得英语写比较有feel.

Now I've realised that I've been repeated the same catchphrase since secondary school. "Trust me!" 信我啦！

Trust me, i said.
I repeat this word more frequent now to my new classmates. I said I'm feeling more arrogant now because I am seriously thinking about my groupmates "are you fuckin retarded?"
"report also don't know how to write?"
"Two graphs, took you 1 fucking hour to write a four sentences description, and two person were helping u"
"u nvr did this b4 in ur college or is it you r retarded??"

These sentences keep on ringing in my head and I'm holding myself not saying that. I learned how to "don't give a shit" during my college life. But apparently i can't just say fck it, I'm leaving. I'm their leader, cmon if they fucked up means I'm fucked up too. I feel bad for thinking all this arrogance n ego thoughts but at the same time I feel bad for not being able to do any shit. What can i do? Explain bit by bit like how i teach my standard 6 students, with patience and fake smile.

We are not from same college, same primary or secondary school, same institution, or even same background. I can't expect us to have same mind sets or intelligence, or even same experience. But at least, please Trust me. I become the leader not because i want to have the fame or popularity. I DON'T TRUST YOU GUYS. I am the kind of man that would rather die in my own hand than die because of others. And I'm confident that I'm definitely more steady and efficient than u guys. Indeed, I'm the one whoe doing everything myself, why? Because i can't stand a person messaging me every single hour to ask me for every single steps, and I have to explain very thoroughly again and again. I was frustrated and just take all the tasks and I've done those graphs (which they spend days to do) in two hours.

I keep on repeating to u guys, Trust me, not because of I'm afraid that you don't trust me.
My subconscious is doing the self-reassuring mechanism to me, I DON'T TRUST YOU.

The mock meeting went perfectly smooth and complimented by lecturer, thanks Darwin. Wouldn't even happen without I DOING THE SCRIPTS THE GRAPH THE DATAS. It's ok, I'm glad it went well. For next week presentation i m still look forward to that.


I'm not angry because of doing all these stuffs myself. As i said, I rather die in my own hand. Yet I'm angry because there is ppl who doubt and question me about the things I've done.

I'm an autocratic leader, a lone traveler, and I admit it. Once the project finish, I won't bother to see you anymore. There is no way i would build an attachment with people who lack of wits. Yeah, I'm fucking arrogant, fucking lansi. Up to you.

Trust me you moron.